Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Free....

I don't feel particularly free...free to be how The Lord wired, made and placed me in the Body.  I'm just not feeling it.  I FEEL displaced. 

  I KNOW a lot of stuff, but what do shows what I truly believe. We act on what we truly believe. In other words, I can talk a good game, but what I think about, feel about and do about all those things testifies to what I actually believe. It's true because it's true. 

So in other words,  I don't have a fear problem, I have an unbelief problem. I don't have an anger problem, I have an unbelief problem. I don't have a worry problem, I have an unbelief problem. Again, it's true because It's true. Now my unbelief issues often times work themselves out in fear, anger, worry and so on! So all those things are issues....they just aren't the root issue. 

What does this have to do with my opening remark about feeling free?  I've spent a lot of time these last few days under the weight of judgement, fear, anxiety and worry.  Life and feelings just get that way sometimes...feel me?  My eyes get on me, others and others responses to me and that creates an even bigger mess! Can I get an "Amen!" My feelings start to be my guide and that is never a good idea.....and I always end up getting stuck. Stuck in unbelief.  Always. Good feelings are never good enough and they don't last and the bad feelings....well , we don't have to go there!   Working over some of these root issues of unbelief....it's worth working over.   

I'm really thankful that The Lord does not have these issues.....He is never low on belief and His belief is never ever misplaced. He never trusts in me. He trusts in Himself in me....He has enough belief. And it is correct belief-always. Pondering on that this evening ....Philippians 1:6 and then Paul's prayer in 1:9-11.